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HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO US HUBBY!
Its been half a year me and zaidi are together....
Thank you for accepting the way I am and appreaciate me.
No doubt we have been through tons of barrier and problems.
Just want you to know that I love you so much and no one else.
Just Lysha and Zaidi....
I love you zaidi.
Haiz, its been such a long long time ive been updating my bloggie.
Im so sorry peeps for not updating.
Been busy with work and spending time with hubby.
Didnt had much time to get my fingers moving.
Anyway, Alhamdullillah, things are getting better.
Just having to pay our traffic police fines and....
Get a house to rent together..
And next plan getting myself a makeover in thailand;bangkok.
Insya ALLAH.....
Orite...will update with pics soon.
As per normal thursday is hubby and my day off.
Simple yet enjoyable day out for us.
Went out shopping and got myself a perfume and a purse.
Hubby had everything installed and had his hands on, on his new iPhone. huhuhu..!
Im happy that i had managed to get what he wanted which was this dear iPhone.
Im getting one too soon!! :)
Met azri and ayu at singapore fyler for supper.
Had some pizzas for supper and went home straight!
i love u zaidi.
How about being straight forward and direct???
Rather then being sarcastic and speaking indirectly.
Its been a bless for me as that even though im a transexual, i had even got myself into a polytechnic and even got myself a job.
How about you??
And at least i have a stable job with me.
How about you??
And for your information,i have my self pride and i earned it!
How about you??
Have you ever thought about yourself before you even think about others???
To this someone.....
Even though my pay is not that much and is not your expectation, at least i worked hard. And i love my job. Its my own sweat and money. And to simply WAKE YOU UP, i have a job but u have nothing. You are nothing....but someone who is FICKLE MINDED.....
I am starting to doubt about you as a friend of mine and think about yourself first before saying others.
Updates!!
Just came back from lepakings with love and friends....
Today is a very kecohrable day at work....very.
Ermmm....
I know its abit late to say wish this but.... here i go.
~~~~~~~~~HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO US ZAIDI!~~~~
Alhamdullilah we are still together....
Going through the ups and downs together....
Building up my trust on him....
And loving each other more day by day...
Thank you so much for accepting the way i am and for who and what i am zaidi.
I am thankful to have met you and appreaciate you always....
Pls do not ever poison this last chance ive given you....
My trust is building up back up again....
But again, ive told you ample times to be honest k.... whatever it is you have to be honest.
I love you so much zaidi.....
The life of a transexual....
Siti Nur Alysha Zara....
~~ will upload more pics soon ya! lOTS of pics to upload!! hehehe~~
(three more months to bangkok!! yey!!!)
At last an update after so long....
I guess this is the only place for me to rant out and express my feelings...
Hearing you snore at this timing and suddenly thought about reading your past written posts in your blog...
..................... Im speechless zaidi...........
I wouldnt say im jealous nor anything.....
I dont know how to react even....
Reading your past written posts when you were with your ex, Raihana, was a touching and sad feeling for me.
I could feel your love for her how strong it was lastime when you were with her....
It was very strong....i could feel it when reading your posts...
A word to describe, it was "jiwang".
I tried so hard not to cry but i did after reading your past posts...
How i wish you love me as much as you love raihana last time....
How i wish u have treated me like how you treated raihana....
I feel shitty and teary...
WHY?? WHY?? AND WHY???
Why is zaidi not treating me like the way he treats his beloved ex....
Why????
Sedih seh sayang.....
At this hour i am crying...
I didnt expect you to be so jiwang last time....
I rasa cinta you terhadap i tak sedalam mana yang you lafazkan kepada i sayang...
....................
Setiap detik aku teringatkan mu....
Walaupun aku pulang setelah hantar mu pulang zaidi....
Hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu isi hatiku ini...
Kalau aku mati.... aku mahu kamu juga termasuk keluarga ku untuk mencium dahi ku and kebumikan aku sehingga habis ditanam....
Seperti yang engkau pernah lafazkan kepada raihana dahulu, "you are the only one sayang".
Aku pun seperti itu zaidi sayang....
Cinta ku pada mu murni....tak pernah sekali aku curang atau pun menggatal.
Aku tak sanggup dan tidak pernah terlintas walaupun aku marah dan disakiti oleh mu zaidi...
~~~~Siti Nur Alysha Zara Hamdan~~~~
~~~~~Sacrifices??~~~~~
Being in love is one thing....
Being attached is another thing....
How you ever sacrificed something that is part of your life for your love one???
Im thinking far ahead....
Its been 3 years plus 6 months i had been studying nursing and i would dare to say no one knows what shit ive been through!!!
Not everyone can be a nurse obviously but however ive been thinking so much....
Even if i graduate and get a hold of this diploma i am sure i wouldnt want to be a nurse at that point of time...
All i think now is my lover and working as a fulltime in an F&B place.
Hmmmm.... lets wait till PRCP starts and see whether i can handle it or not i suppose...
To ZAIDI....
"Every second we are apart,I am missing you so much....So much that only God knows. I would rush to wherever you are just to check on you whether you are doing well.
It crushes my heart to see you cry or be in a down mood....
Its ok whether the rain beats down on me or the sun is burning hot on the day so as long I get to meet you...
It makes me teary when i see you sleep soundly by my side....
Its ok if i dont get to sleep so as long you are safely slept.....
Zaidi....
I dare to say I would die for you....
I do....
Even now I'm blogging while talking to you on the phone, i am crying....
My love for you is pure...
Pure love and true love...
No one can separate us unless you want to.... :(
However i know....
You are forcing yourself to be with me........................
~~the life of a transexual~~~~
~~HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!~~
Through these 3 months,its been a learning process and journey for my relationship with you zaidi...
3 months is like 3 years to me...
We've been through so much if u agree??...
So much....
From the very first day we got attached.
However...you learnt and turned over a new leaf.
Wanting you to know that this relationship means alot to me...
I would go through anything which ive never imagined, to just to be with you...
Ive loved you from the very first day we met and when i laid my eyes on you...
Remember....
If i die, i will pray for your happiness...insya ALLAH.
If i die, pls take care of yourself.
Your memories with me is always here in my heart and mind...
Lysha sayang zaidi...........................
~~true love comes once in a lifetime.....treasure it while u have it~~
